When I was three my Dad died. This left my Mom alone to raise five kids. She managed to go back to college and find a job. This meant that she was almost never home and my siblings raised me. They all had drug addiction, alcohol abuse, and violent tendencies. As the youngest, I stopped looking up to them and decided what I would never be.
In high school I volunteered at the Utah Hogle's Zoo for five years. While volunteering I specialized in advocating for polar bears and climate change. I was even selected to be the Arctic Ambassador and travel to Canada.
I studied polar bears in the wild and attended lectures with the "top" climate experts and conservationists in the world. Here's a news story on the adventure.
I was also in the Future Farmers of America. Where I owned, raised and sold pigs, cows, and sheep for slaughter. My main project, however, was backpacking and dairy goats. I went to the state speaking contest with a bipartisan speech titled "Advocating for the Conservationist and the Agricultural Industry at the same time." I continued my conservation work by entering PBI's Project Polar Bear.
My main baby was Kazam: the first and only castrated male I had bottle raised. He was so little and weak at six months old that he died in my arms of pneumonia.
I was accepted to another environmental research project called Girl's On Ice. I climbed to the top of Mount Baker to measure the glaciers. The data was to track if the glacier was receding and how much if so.
I'm going to pull the card I am not allowed to pull. I have a black best friend, I have a peruvian best friend, finally I have a German best friend. These weren't just "friends" I chatted to in the hallway. These were my three best friends in high school. The only other close friend I had was a stanch republican! Yes, we did all hang out together: our beliefs were a joke and not nearly as important as our friendship.
This is when I founded Mutiny Shop at 18-years-old. I worked part-time as Subway, went to college, and worked at Mutiny Shop for two years. In college I majored in Environmental Conservation and minored in Graphic Design. I made very little money and was on the verge of homelessness at the time. I couldn't even afford to buy a car for two years. When Mutiny Shop took off, I bought my first car, with cash. I will never be prouder than I was that day!
Again I was caught in the middle with conflicting opinions on everything. I couldn't discuss any of my opinions on Facebook because one half of my friends would be offended if my opinion leaned either right or left.
So I didn't focus on politics. I started training jiu jitsu and muay thai. I loved it so much I would train 2-6 hours a day. I was best friends of all races, creeds and political beliefs. Focused entirely on helping each other become the best, with no desire to discuss anything either than fighting.
Then I got sick. Really sick. I don't like to go into the details of what my illness is, but I couldn't function for the first year of treatment. I still haven't been able to train three years later, so I lost my closest fighting friends. My boyfriend and co-founder left.
It was the hardest two weeks of my life: alone and heart broken in the hospital.
Paloma was busy with school, she was my only friend. My Mom even told my roommate to take my two cats to the pound too, but he refused. After that happened my family stopped talking to me. I still wanted them in my life then, but they were done with me. They said I took too much energy to deal with, when I had only been sick six months and they were in another state so it actually effected them very little either than short phone calls. I never had much of a blood related family anyways.
My other niece Jace, I didn't get to see as much of because I moved to California when she was born and Emma was four. Five years later I was with them constantly again because they had moved to Las Vegas. Then I got sick. My sister moved to Texas. I have seen them three times in the two years since. That hurts me more than anything else. I have a new niece and nephew that I can't bare to get attached to because I have seen them once.
While I was sick someone attacked Mutiny Shop's SEO. First they removed our SSL, prompting Google to label our site a security risk. Then they added 200,000 spammy backlinks which got us completely delisted from Google. We were the first result for the search term "Custom Patches" and now we aren't on Google at all. Sales dropped 70% and we had to let go 70% of our employees. I'm doing a lot to recover but we're still on the verge of bankruptcy. It could go either way.
Despite all of that, I managed to find the love of my life and eloped last year. Through him I finally in a real family. Full of the siblings, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and Fathers I never had.
While I was sick my interest in politics and world events exploded. I watched thousands of youtube videos, read many books, and political elections gained my full attention. Now, at 25-years-old, I am finally ready to talk.
I have my biases, but I also consider my self bipartisan. I'm not going to list the details of my beliefs, they can be discovered in the other blog posts I have written and will write.